Friday, July 24, 2009

Remembering My Dad

I'm so sorry for not being able to post anything for a while, I've been too lazy recently with regards to posting...It's not a valid excuse but It's just that sometimes my brain doesn't work properly...Maybe I've got large gaps of neurons..LOL..

This coming monday (July 27) is my Dad's first year death anniversary..I can't believe it's been a year. I actually think of Papa a lot...


My Father has always been strict not only with me but with everyone...he provided us with discipline that we required and needed, his commands are always the law and everyone is scared of him.but he was always fair and just. throughout the years we have had our share of disagreements, the typical arguments about curfews, partying, piercings, having a boyfriend or even petty things like my eyebrows or presidential candidates..hehe...still my fear and respect of him, provided me a perspective that my actions would acquire negative consequences. disappointing my dad was not an option. He was a very caring and compassionate man, a supportive father..He was also never vocal about his feelings..I never heard him said I love you but I know in my heart that he loves us more than anyone in the world does.

My Parents Wedding Photo, they were always together until my dad died.

I love my Papa so much and I regret not being able to tell him so...the last time I talked to him was on the phone he was in the hospital being treated with fungal infection in the lungs, all I said to him was that he should relax and that he was going to be well but after a few days he was in the ICU, the doctors misdiagnosed him, he has cancer and they never treated him for it. I wasn't there when he died, I wasn't able to go home on time.

me,my papa and his friends on my 18th birthday


I want to thank my papa for being always there for us, for loving us unconditionally, for sharing everything that he has, for providing us with memories and everything that we need to survive his absence..there isn't a day that goes by that I don't think about him, I know he is in better place now and someday I know we will be together in heaven but till then I will miss him with all my heart.

XOXO,
Iris

13 comments:

Shopn'Chomp said...

Iris, your post was so touching that I got teary eyed. Though you were not able to say everything you wanted to at the time, I am sure he always knew in his heart how much you and everyone in his life loved him. :)

Your post today and your actions in life are a salute to the man he was.

Sassy Jadore said...

This is such a touching post. He will always be there with you in spirit. =)

I'm going to try the other two Starbucks flavor once the weather gets warmer. =) So far it the weather has been dull like.

MEii said...

I'm sorry for your lost, i'm sure your dad is proud of you and watching over you guys.

The Clothes Horse said...

My condolences. This was such a sweet memorial to who I'm sure was a wonderful man and father. Great parents make such a difference in the world.

Lily G. said...

Awww, what a beautiful post. I'm sure your dad is incredibly proud of you.

mszcheysser said...

I am very sorry for your lost. I enjoyed reading your post, I admire a daughter's love for her father.

I am sure that you father knew how much you love him. And that he is very proud of you. I'm sure, he's watching over you at heaven.

Hana aka acutelife said...

It's a beautiful post. thanks for sharing with us, im sure your dad knew how much you love him during his lifetime :)

ChinkyGirLMeL said...

Awww...this is so sad...I'm sorry for what happened. I guess in the end the only things we really have are the memories of the times and days gone by... I'm sure as he watches over you he will probably smile and be very proud of the person that you are today.

Pop Champagne said...

that is a very touching post... I'm sorry that you never got to see your dad before he passed away. I'm sure that he knows you love him and that you are special to him. I'm also sure that he is proud of who you are today!

I also agree that Jhonny Depp is pretty amazing, his kids are so lucky that they got one of the coolest dads around to play all these crazy movie roles!

Dana Yoshimizu said...

I bought thouse stickers that are on my palette at either Wal-Mart or Target. But you could also buy them at Michael's

Jannie said...

this was a very heart warming and touching post. i am sorry to hear about your loss. this was a beautiful tribute to your father.

even though he is up in heaven right now, i'm sure your father knows just how much you love him and every day he is watching over you and smiling at how proud he is of you. :)

Ares G. said...

This was very touching. I'm very close to my father and losing him... I couldn't imagine.

verina oei said...

i read ur post and actually tear myself.:P
my daddy is the one i love the most in the universe

i used round lipgloss natural
really love the color yeah?:)